Monday, January 31, 2005 11:40 p.m.
|Im back|
Im back!!!!!!!!!I know Ive not been blogging for a long time.My internet's been disconnected.
First of all..PADAN MUKA KAU.HaHaHaHa.Finally,you got your retribution.Diz war of words has finally come to an end and we haf finally proven our worth.
I overheard some rumours about some people dissin' me and my ayang behind my back.Im not the kind of person who will point out who the person is.But,im the kind of person who will stand up and fight for my rights if its necessary.Seriously,i dont need nobody to share my believes nor be involved in my beef.Coz' im a man and i can stand on my own 2 feet.So you better not go round mouthin' bout me.And watch wat you said or write coz it may be used against you 1 of these days.You heard?!
We're all still friends..
Once again,my laziness and my stubborn attitude has gotten 'e best of me.And the consequences are dreadful.I may be gone for a long time.But im not sure for how long.Maybe months,maybe years.None of this info has ever been disclosed to anyone except for my ayang.So,i'd rather spend this week with my loved ones.Tuesday maybe my last day seeing ya'll...
All's well dat ends well.Wish me all the luck that i can get...
I hope I can see you in the days to come...Haish..
[Notorious LDC]Thursday, December 16, 2004 10:11 p.m.
|Im realli puzzled and angry at the same time|
Wad do i start of with?Let's see..Wassup y'all..HOw y'all been doin?
Im feeling angry and puzzled..Shit,alotta things can happen in one nite fer real..For instance,here's a situation..Let's say,there's two people in love..First of all,da women always has it her way..I dunnoe why but thats the way it is..She's gone fer a outing sumwhere in S'pore.But she went there not with her guy but with her work colleagues.Mind you da colleagues are the wild type but the guy doesnt mind..They were gonna drink for i've been told.The girl promises da guy she will not be drinkin.Thats good to hear.Still the guy is fine with it and let her go with a lil heavy heart..Da guy cant get to go cause he's in trouble with da law..Da guy always expects da worst when this type of situation happens..She left for the outing at nite and will be returnin da followin morning..*heart sinks*Da woman promises her guy lotsa things but atlast didnt keep her promises..Its quite heartbreakin but wad can he do.He loves da girl so much he would sacrifice his life for her.She told him that she would call him when she got there and keep him kinda updated on things with her.She called once she got there and they talked for a while.Soon enuff she told him that she wanted to eat.So da guy obliged and let da girl eat.They put down the phone soon after.
After quite a while at around 2am,he called her again.But to da guy's suprise,a guy picked up da phone..See,if da guy on the other line was talkin properly,he wouldnt mind.But the guy that picked up the phone which was not his but hers was panting while talkin on the bloody phone.Da guy was kinda frustrated that a panting guy answered his lover's mobile phone.The panting guy said that the girl wasnt there and she was not around there...The guy was furious and was so freakin irritated he tooked some money that he juz got and blew it on liqour..He was so confused and angry....
At last,he got back home and thoght the whole thing thru..He knew she loved him alot.But he still has doubts in his mind..He stil loved her alot and is still tryin to put that shit out of his head...Haish......
[Notorious LDC]Tuesday, December 14, 2004 10:32 p.m.
|Silence is Golden|
I have no mood to blog todae..No mood to talk..No mood to even smile..Im sorry if i acted like a fool..I juz wanna be alone..
[Notorious LDC]Sunday, December 12, 2004 1:21pm
|Frustrated Muthafarker!!!!!|
Does tha world reali hate me that much?Is everything im do wrong?Am i that fuckin selfish?I reali dunnoe wad to do with myself..Nobody loves me..Sumtimes the world can seem so cold..Is my presence reali annoying everyone ard me?i do everything with a purpose..Its not for my own benefit.
Sumtimes i think its better for me to be locked up behind bars..I wont worry anione,trouble anione,living my life quitely in dere..Sumetimes i feel that prison is calling me..Coz life out here reali makes me so fucked up..If i i go back in there,my dad wont b worried bout me all da tyme..He wont have to pay the bond which is$6000 if i breach probation..I dun wanna live my life like tiz.Its betta i finish my time in there and walk out a free man than follow the rules all the time..
I told myself not to worri and she's still out there..Sum more now no bus or MRT..If i could,i would take her home..I juz cant stand the thought of her there..With em crazy playas and clowns..(no offence to doink,im dead serious!!)Fuck la..Hati panas jer sial!!!!Pukimak peh probation..Now at 1:14,then wanna take nightrider home...Go lah n enjoy urself..I've nuthin to say..
1 more thing,i reali am fed up wit this life of rules and regulations..So here's a message to those muthafarkers..Im reali burnin inside of me..so its not my fault if u catch me and i retaliate and hurt any of u pussies..Coz im a fuckin outlaw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Bitch!!!!!!!!!
[Notorious LDC]Wednesday, December 8, 2004 10:38 p.m.
|Dedication To Da Kraziest-OnE|
Doink,i will miss u wen ur gone..U've grown on me juz like Tsunami..Seriously,i wish da best for u..Do our country proud aight boy...
Hold up lemme make a phone call
Ring,Ring,Ring,guez who im gonna call
The One and Only Kraziest One frm CDS Family
U were at Sentosa away from us being wit ur baby
Dont worry i feel ya,when u leave her behind for ur national duty
U've reali been da heart and soul of tiz family when ur down
Without you its like a circus with no krazy clowns
Haha,reminisce the tymes we got hit,'eh chill ar,chill ar'
Shit,an everlasting memory that seem so far
I never told u tiz but i was a lil jealous of you
When u were close wit Shida,i reali envied you
I wont shed a tear coz i noe ur better of here
A young innocent clown goin NS for da first tym with no fear
I noe one day u'll be back as soon as i end probation
U,me n Tsunami with da family will go out for a celebration
I wish u da best of luck from da bottom of my heart
Hope u wont change wen u get back or grow apart
D-a one and only krazy muthatuna for ZeE
O-bviously da one down for CDS N LDC Family
I-nterestingly strange,weird and soft-hearted
N-ever hot-tempered,angry or disorientated
K-raziest One Legacy will Live forever with The Legendaries
Things will change once ur gone coz everione will miss u..Believe me..i will too..Change?shit..Guez change is good fer some of us..Whtever it is wen ur gone,dont ever change..Shit,im with u boy..Im down with u...Come back in one piece aight..
[Notorious LDC]Saturday, December 4, 2004 10:22 p.m.
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Todae was a pretty boring day...I didnt wanna go out actuali but ended u goin to wdlds as always..Went to Tsunami's crib to play Def Jam(Fight for NY)...Finished da whole story mode..New York is Mine!!!!! Hahahakzz.....I was so damn engrossed playin da game...Fuh!!!
I met 'her' fer a while todae while she is on break..Aiyoh ayang,u bau mcm tu bawang...Tk bleh angkat,bleh nangis...*muacks* i miss my baby badly..Wish i cld hold her rite nw..Haish..
k la thats all i can sae fer nw...Malas mau tulis panjang2...
[Notorious LDC]Friday, December 3, 2004 11:36am
|Dont Let It Be True|
Juz tot of updating my blog agen tiz morning..Woke up so damn early todae..Gonna meet my ayang later..I wanna be late..*winkz*Todae i feel so sensual like my ayang..Dunnoe why..Maybe coz i miss her so much....='(
Haish...hiphopfest...Guez im not going there..Me and my braders are going to rewang for Samad's sister's fren..Well i guez its gonna be fun dere too..A guy's day out..with my mind totally thinkin about 'her'..Have fun lah k...Dance like hell and enjoy k..I dun wanna hold you back juz becos im on probation..I dont reali mind even if u go China Black..I dun want to be holding you back k..Enjoy urself on the 11th k...HiphopFest's gonna be da bomb for sure...Especially da guy u had a crush on is there...=)Dance ur ass of k ayang..Juz enjoy ur nite..
Haish..my mom's behind me ironin her shirt..I dunnoe wad to write..Juz writing was comes to my mind..Eh wait...Damn that pink-eyed dragon,he'd been to places where i've never been..I juz wanna hold sumone so tight and dun ever let her go..
Last a coupla days has never been so fun for me..I reali wanna bond with my girl..we went to East Coast twice in the same week..Had a reali2 fun tyme with her..She made me feel so special..Make me feel so vulnerable and open..LOVE HER SO MUCH!!I hope our relationship will be an everlasting one..*amin*
Todae i woke up..i realised i dreamt about sumthing last nite..K..lemme try my best to explain da scenario..I was waitin for my baby to come home from her O' levels results..I dunnoe where i was when she arrived..But i was like on top of a flight of stairs..My arms was folded when she rode by..she was at the back of a something like a pick-up van..and then they stopped by me..and sumone who i didnt expected come out of the driver seat..And it was Nizam..Haha..yes da one from Royal Fam..I dunnoe juz wad to feel..I shaked hands with all da peeps saving da last for my ayang..but to my suprise..she didnt shake my hand..Treated me like a normal typical friend..and Firman was also there..I dunnoe wad da ocassion was but it was damn scary..I woke up wit tears in my eyes..Hope that dont ever happen to me..Haish-i dunnoe wad to feel right now..Yeah i noe..im feeling down and out rite now..
That's all i can write for todae..Till da next tyme i dream about something like this,then only imma update..=)Nah,im kidding..gotta update maybe 2mr or something la..Haish-i feel something so heavy in my heart rite now..k la....*belah ayam belah itik,gua belah pon baik*
[Notorious LDC]Thursday, December 2, 2004 10:09 p.m.
|Lonely|
Hush baby...i got sum things to tell ya..And this is hw it goes...
Its been like foreva
Since i felt ur touch and kissed each otha
I missed da features of your face n ur sweet caress
Absence makes da heart grow fonder i must confess
Da smell of ur hand and tha touch of ur lips,i fell so blessed
I'd never do anything to break ur heart
These few days i've never felt being apart
So i pray silently to da One and Almighty God above
'Pls dont ever take tiz feeling from me coz i noe its LOVE'..
I need you eva so much..These feelings for u aint fiction..Its not even a contradiction..I noe its never an illusion when ur with me..Baby girl,understand my needs and ride with me..My world aint nothing without my baby..NO ONE CAN EVER COME BTW LADY ISIS AND ZiLLyZ.. and the Notorious LDC...
[Notorious LDC]Tuesday, November 30, 2004 11:21 p.m.
|Shy But SexuaL|
Its been a long tyme since i wrote...*smiles*...Life's been da greatest for me..I love my baby lots..More than i love myself i guez..I'd do anything to please her.But juz please dun cry,coz i'll feel so damn helpless for sure...
But aside from that i noe i've been neglecting my brader,Tsun...I juz wanna apologise if i neglected you..I juz wanna let him noe that i treasure him as much as i treasure my baby...Paisei boss..Gua mintak paisei byk2..
[Notorious LDC]Tuesday, November 23, 2004 01:43 p.m.
|Keep It On The Down Low|
On 21st,i went to tsun's place to talk things over with him..That boy is juz so damn stupid..Haish..wad can i say..i dun wan anything to happen 2 him...Afta that,da whole CDS Family turned up..And whoa! it was a lotta people...It was a great event though..Pure happiness and joy filled the air..I got lucky and took some pictures with Shida..It was an enjoyable experience..
Yesterdae,aha,a pleasant day...Went out wit Shida,ejad and shima..my brader had sum last min shits so he din come wit us..Went to town..Shima mau carik keje... :) i never tot going out wit them could be that damn tiring..Seriously...i was damn tired afta i got home...Then she beeped me..Almost forgot about that..We talked and talked and talked and i love her and miss her alot...I noe that i aint that perfect guy but imma make sure that u dont get any less loving from me...Im going all out with my cayang....Im ready for tiz life about us together baby...Dont ever hold back on me kayz....
Look in the eyes,on a fella who seldom cries...
Gotta a beautiful girl and friends,why me?
If tiz is reali good living,God,why me?
When im living so dangerously...
That u feel i'm worthy to be...
The guy of the goddess of beauty...
But im down for you baby....
Dun worry bout a thang cos Im READY!!!
[Notorious LDC]Saturday, November 20, 2004 12:20 a.m.
|R.I.P ZiLLyZ Capone|
Juz when i tot it all would get betta
Nuthin can stab me in my chest deeper
I dunnoe wad it mean or its suppose to mean
But for sure i hate to mean that im being mean
I was so damn into every ish thats was said
i oso said that imma stand by every werd i stated
Since its gone,i cant get that lovin n gonna witness by far
*Aku mendoakan agar kau bahagia bersama insan yg kau suka*
I knew that i wasnt goin that very far
Still*ku cuba pejam mata tapi tk terlena kerana ku maseh teringat pada nya*
Kau sepatutnya berpunya dgn sesiapa yg kau suka
Ku kn tetap disini hanya dapat menyayangi dirimu dan memuja
But since everythang said is said n everythang done is done
Im gonna end tiz verse by saying im long gone
*pulls out a semi automatic and points to my head,ready to shoot''BANG!!''*
[Notorious LDC]Wednesday, November 17, 2004 11:44pm
|Weaknesses|
Im tryin to find da weaknesses to my enemies and how to defeat them.Im confident that with this kinda way..We can accomplish miracles..Analyse my enemy's weaknesses and destroy em with a bigger bang..like the art of war written by sum chinese guy..u gotta analyse their weakness and exploit it..I gotta start thinkin business-like if i wanna go anywhere..Gonna read up every The Art Of War and Machavelli information..I have da strong urge to just be da best of da best..I cannot be guillible and let people make decisions for me..Wad i want i gotta get it..Dun care whether its handed to me or i gotta grab it...
Well,thats all i gotta say for now cause im tired as hell..Did CSO from 9-5 everyday...im flat as flat could be....Still gotta wait fer her msg..Miss her..eventhough tadi aru jumpe...hahahakz...k la..SLAMAT HARI RAYE..MAAF ZAHIR BATIN...to all ive offended or going to offend..Actuali i dun feel sorri..Not even one ounce of remorse is in my body..
[Notorious LDC]Tuesday, November 16, 2004 05:34 p.m.
|Love Me Or Hate Me?|
This girl loves me,tiz girl loves me not
Im dead fallin for tiz princess cos shes so hot
and she seem so real to me but literally if she doesnt pick me
Imma keep my mind calm and free
Still got alotta ppl who wanna riddle me
Get her away from me but im ZiLLy Z
Need i say more?I get myself mentally prepared for da chaos
Cos imma bring out the beast in me
And i dun wanna breathe easy
I wanna make it hard for my enemies
So when they cant stand me
I make their lives more difficut so they'll lose their family
Nah,im never gonna be intimidated believe me
Now do you love me or do you hate me?
U noe i aint shit without Tsunami?
Do you love me?Do you hate me?Do you love me?Do you hate me?
Tiz day i sit staring at the window watching my life pass me by
Pondering on da meanin of life n my urge to die
Im not reali afraid to die but i've got reasons of stay alive
I've been beat up,dissed at,luff at,stared at
Trying not to give in to my inner demon who's been dere,done that
No pleasure in doing wad i usta do,bein a mutharucka who kills you
Threathen,torment,terrorize u cos nobody knew wad ive been thru
Now listen,im a guy with high ambitions,out on a life-long mission
By accident became a rap musician demandin a higher position
Understand the DEFinition,cos im done read the instructions
Juz wanna do wad i do best and be a level higher than the rest
Don't try to contest or i'll leave ur house up in a mess
Got probation for housebreakin so i know wad im doin now
Sincerely fellas i was once lost but now im found
So read abt it The Notorious LDC,courtesy of my brotheR,Tsunami
Betta hear abt it frm ur hood to ma hood makin catz fear Notorious LDC
Dingedy-D,Lady Isis,ZiLLyZ n da boss of all bosses Tsunami
Do you love me?Do you hate me?Do you love me?Do you hate me?
Its up to y'all to decide to love me or hate me
I done did all da explainin and told my story
Today i stand strong wit no fears for my life
All i ever wanted i was money and love i gotta strive
In this industry i gotta keep on movin to survive
With the wind beneath my wings ground under my feet
I’m the black rose fellas,that grew from the concrete
Its me ZiLLyZ,get it right or get hit
Wad lookin for?You fellas lookin for me?
Shit now they got all their ''Eyes On Me''
Im strivin to be great like B.I.G and P.A.C
Y'all hate me cos onli i cld analyse all your weakness
Y'all love me cos im gonna get money with all my business
Still y'all gotta love my family and me
SgHiphop is destined for Notorious LDC
Hahaha...its our time now..i usta be a face in the crowd..now imma emerge from da crowd..Notorious LDC..Big shoutout to all my fellas..Tsunami..Doink.. Typhoon..Lady Isis...hahaha...we gonna take over...Its love,its pain...we gotta stay together man....Holla back y'all...Representing Notorious LDC...
[Notorious LDC]Saturday, November 13, 2004 01:02 p.m.
|Thug Ish|
Still i stand here with no strings attached
Busting on my rhymes with no fear intact
Im da notorious child,im supposed to wild
I bomb rappers with no mercy fellas murda inc style
Betta bow down,the new era of Capone reign is near
Understand that my mob-style crew is here to take over
We being business-oriented sghiphop get ready 4 a takeover
I say it once,i said it before
Dissin all u fake bitches thats for sure
Its da notorious and murderous ZiLLyZ
Together with the boss of all bosses,Tsunami
Representing Notorious LDC till da next prophecy
[Notorious LDC]Friday, November 12, 2004 10:46 p.m.
|Everything Gon' Bee Alrite...|
Since day 1 i invaded your life,i was focused onli to you
Had no plans of bein friends with whoever u knew
Strictly my business was with you and only you
But Tsunami saw me thru and was sceptical 4 u
Slowly u progress from bein with one man afta another
I witness teardrops and misery for my baby girl
From that second on,i knew i had to make life 4 u betta
I solemnly swore to make happy 4 eva n eva
Is it too late for me to show you the shape of my heart
I'll cherish u,treasure you and neva tear ur heart apart
Neva had it all goin for me since i didnt play my cards rite
Juz waitin for the perfect time and neva gon' be uptight
Take your time and everything's gon' be alrite
[Notorious LDC]Thursday, November 11, 2004 10:04 p.m.
|ZiLLy Capone|
Its rare that i become thiz soft and weak...Complicated with emotions and different reactions..I feel tat i fell deeply fer her but i dont wanna confuse her or anything..But i cant stop disturbing her,keep beepin her phone and checkin up on her..Hope that im not becomin a nuisance to her...I do reali enjoy her presence..her company...her beauty(hahakz) ...almost everythin about her...haiyoh..im going on and on about her..
Yesterday went to report wit Tsun..waited fer Alip fer about half an hour..Late as usual...Still later went to beach road coz Ayie wanted to buy shoe.Bought Vans shoe at $65..Cheap ish over there...Unfortunately,that little girl was there..Yes,that Izati..Irritating and entertainin..''Tsun ko tk sayang aku eh?''Ahahakz..Took alot of pix together..but the pics that i took of her was actualli reali nice..She's a easy subject as she likes to pose alot..Another picture of perfection...But an irritatin picture of perfection...
Da Godfather theme song is actuali soothing and relaxing..Reali dig that song..Watched da movie like umpteen times...I reali aspired to like Alphonso Capone one day..He's charismatic,clever and knows how to coontrol his anger..He's my role model from now on....
*enjoying The Godfather Theme Song*
[Notorious LDC]Thursday, November 11, 2004 09:41 p.m.
|Mafia Ish|
This is the story of Murder, Inc. from its beginning as the brain child of Johnny Torrio and Lucky Luciano to the death of Albert Anastasia, the "Lord High Executioner" of the Syndicate in 1950s.
At the height of its efficiency, Murder, Inc. was probably responsible for a thousand killings from coast to coast. Guns and knives were used, of course, but so were more imaginative methods like cremation, slow strangling, quicklime and live burial. Some killers liked the icepick – properly inserted into the ear, a skilled killer could scramble a bum’s brains and make it look like a cerebral hemorrhage.One gangster who had cheated his compatriots out of their take of a gambling operation was stabbed and then tied to a pinball machine and dumped into a lake. Until it was broken by a stool pigeon with first-hand knowledge of dozens of killings, Murder, Inc. operated quietly and ruthlessly, rubbing out gangsters who had run afoul of the cartel and lawmen who threatened its existence.
They are remorseless killers and tough, fearless lawmen; of unbelievable brutality committed in the name of greed and of devotion to the rule of law.
Murder, Incorporated was run by two of the toughest individuals to come out New York City. Ever. Louis "Lepke" Buchalter, the nations leading labor racketeer and Albert Anastasia, a member of the National Crime Syndicate ran a group of mainly Jewish killers out of the back room of the Brownsville candy store, Midnight Rose's.
Murder, Inc. was the enforcement arm of the Syndicate. They only killed when "contracted" to do so. Contracts had to be approved unanimously by the Commission, along with some members who claimed to have no vote (Meyer Lansky wanted no connection to the actual voting, but no one ever made a move without his approval). The set up: contracts were issued from various cities throughout the nation. If a contract needed to be completed in Baltimore, they'd hire someone from Cleveland or Los Angeles, bring them in for a week to study the "bum's" routine, and then off them in various ways - car accidents, strangulation, or as simple as gunning them down on a quiet street. One thing was certain, if a contract was issued, it was definitely carried out.
For about ten years, Murder, Inc. was reportedly responsible for anywhere between 500 to 700 murders nationwide, from Connecticut to California. Below, you will find a number of Jewish and Italian members of Murder, Inc. Some were convicted, some were executed themselves, but they were probably the toughest guys to walk around the streets of New York City, and didn't need a license to kill, just a contract.
Albert Anastasia
Abe "Kid Twist" Reles
Harry Strauss (A.K.A. Pittsburgh Phil, Pep)
Louis Capone(no relation to Al Capone)
Charlie "The Bug" Workman
Mendy Weiss
Buggsy Goldstein
Happy Maione
Dasher Abbandando
Allie Tannenbaum
Jacob "Gurrah" Shapiro
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